Fifty Six: Probably TMI.

"And you tell me life's a bitch

But I don't really think you get this

And I wish that I'd not let you in any more

And I wish that I'd been a bit fussier about the kind of people that I let

through the door..."

Why I shouldn't have let you in- Tom Milsom

I'm currently listening to Tom Milsom and vaguely paying attention to  film on the background called 'Stuck on You' which so far is alright, I suppose. Though why they chose Matt Damon and Greg Kinnear to play conjoined twins I really don't know, because they look nothing like each other. Obviously they're not meant to be identical, but hey, they're meant to be related.

On another film related note, my brother and I watched about half an hour of The Dark Night before deciding that it was rubbish. I still have another film to choose for this month, so if you've got any recommendations, open fire. It's now June, so I can choose two films for this month. Recommendations please.

College is rubbish at the moment, and I can't wait to never have to go back. I skipped double Critical Thinking today last Wednesday to have lunch with Helen and talk about a whole bunch of things that are bothering me. It was good to have a different perspective on things. Anyway, we ended up going back to college to hang out with Katie, who was revising for her exam and we had a laugh pointing out the random things in her science textbooks and noticing the certain floral underwear of girls with practically see through skirts. This, ladies and gentlemen, is what I spend my spare time doing. Although I've now officially left and it's half term and then study leave, I'll still be going back for revision sessons.

Exams are getting scarily close and if I'm not revising, then I'm worrying. I only have three of them (or two if you don't count Critical Thinking, which I don't. I'll turn up, but I'm not revising for it) so it could be worse and this time next month I'll be done. It's two weeks to my first exam (English Lit) and I'm panicking because I don't know anything. I'm surrounded by paper with notes about quotes and themes and stuff and none of it seems to be going in. The truth is, I've partly given up. Although I may do okay on English Lit, English Language is impossible. I know I'm probably going to end up going to Greenwich and although I don't really want to go to uni there, at least it will be further away from home.

And now to the reason why currently at the moment as to why I want to be further away from home. Yes, you guessed it, it's a boy related thing (primarily). I really liked him. Think I still do. I'm pretty sure he hates me and it's my fault, simply because I over reacted to something. I was wrong, and as a result of that, he said some stuff. A conclusion of this is that I don't think people should be allowed to walk into your life, mess you around and then walk out again; I don't understand how you can stop caring about someone. I don't have my feelings on a switch.

Anyway, so I'm a little stressed. Oh, and Jayne Geary (aka Key Skills teacher) has put me on Amber. There are no words that express how little I care about that subject, and is fairly low down my priority list.

I promise another blog soon that's more 'normal'.

B xxx

NB: This entry has taken quite a long time to write and was in fact written over 6 days. Just so you know.