Fifty One/Two: Part Two.

"I need to be bold

Need to jump in the cold water

Need to grow older with a girl like you

Finally see you are naturally

The one to make it so easy

When you show me the truth

Yeah, I'd rather be with you

Say you want the same thing too"

I'd rather be with you - Joshua Radin

I decided I'd do a collage of pictures, rather than posting them individually.

In this picture:
Posing with bronze statues, Leaving Puerto Vallarta, Writing my name on the beach, man on a dancing horse, a statu of a ballerina, the shopping centre in Puerto Vallarta, the arch in Cabo San Lucas, watching bricks being made, me and mum being silly, getting soaked by a wave, the beach, a small girl working at a brick making site, my mum, the market in Mazatlan and Mexican dancers.
Other things that happened that aren't in these pictures:
Saw dolphins, lost at Scrabble, sunbathed, ate free food, saw sealions, went on a glass bottom tour, briefly had a pelican stalker, got two braids in my hair, saw two stingray up close and wrote a lot.

Also, this has got nothing to do with holidays, but look how adorable she is:

This was taken when I went to see Greenwich Uni and stayed with Richard and Patti, who are distant relations. They named their baby Alicia (pronounced A-liss-ya) and it's her christening in June. I have no idea what to wear to it, so if anyone's got any ideas, I’m open to them. I’ve seen the chapel wear she’s going to be christened, and it’s beautiful- it’s actually part of the university grounds so heaven forbid I end up going to Greenwich at least I’ll have a quiet-ish place. When there’s not tourists.

Anyway,bye...

B xxx :)

Fifty One: Part One.

"Rien n'est plus dangereux qu'une idée quand on n'a qu'une idée."

Alain (Émilie-Augsuste Chartier), taken from Propos sur la religion. NB: not a book I've actually read.

Why are decisions so hard to make?



A primary reason for decisions being so hard to make is that they have consequences. When deciding which decision to make, most people will tell you that the first thing they’ll do is to make a pros and cons list. This can be affective, particularly if you have very few options and if one list outweighs the other, the problem is easily solved, a decision is made and the world carries on as normal. However, not all decisions are that easy to make. There may be several options. A pros and cons list may not help at all- they are mostly full of hypothetical points, after all. You are trying to predict the future. So, you may ask, how do you decide what to do when the decision is not so simple? Well, you do what I’m doing now: you sit down, you get a pen and paper and you write. You try and make a sense of the situation that you are in. As Noah Bennett (Claire Bennett’s dad on Heroes) said “Perhaps you need to understand who you were to know where you are going.” He suggests that if we look at the past we will be able to understand our present, and indeed, our future. I’m sure there’s a stack of quotes against that – most telling us to seize the day (“Carpe diem” among others). And if you don’t manage to fully understand the situation, you have, at least, defined it. Next, come of the list options, which, in a decision like this, is long and calls for many piles of pros and cons. We worry- do we trust our head, or do we trust our heart? Our head contains logic and all things sensible, whereas our heart contains emotion, but also our instincts. After all this, you should have arrived at a conclusion which contains the decision best for you. What do you mean you haven’t come to one? Well, it could be because the decision could depend on another person’s reactions, which are difficult to predict, not matter how well you think you know the person. This is one of those times when you imagine having a conversation with this person, planning what they will say and how they will react. It’s not a good idea, as most of the time they will react in a completely different way. So what do you do? Well, you could risk it, go ahead and see what happens. But if you’re a bit of a wimp and worried about the consequences, you tend to leave it, generally with the phrase ‘I’ll just wait and see what happens’. Your decision is to not make a decision. You do nothing at all. Which can go either way really. There’s a chance it’ll work out for the best. But there’s also a chance that the worse decision you can make is to not make a decision at all. So you’re faced with whether to make a decision about making a decision. Confused? Don’t blame you. Of course, other people often offer advice. Sometimes this helps. Other times people don't understand what there is to decide about and simply laugh it off.

So,how do you decide? I'd like to tell you I know, but I don't.

B xxx

P.S.  Part Two will be tomorrow, and will contain normal, holiday related things.

Fifty: Fiiivvveeee Oohhhh.

"Don't unplug me

or just shut me down

Please just love me

with your steel heart

I'd reboot you

If you'd look at me

With those cold eyes

One more time..."

Don't Unplug Me- ALL CAPS

Yeah, that 'proper' blog I started sort of got pushed aside due to the huge amount of work I suddenly had. Teachers don't seem to understand the concept of holidays. At all. Anyway, I suppose I could copy and paste what I already wrote...

Last Wednesday I got a phone call from Lydia, and she and Dominic picked me up to go theirs for a dvd night (via Tesco to buy popcorn) and while we were waiting for the popcorn to heat up in the microwave, Lydia put her iPod on and hip wiggling to Lady Gaga somehow happened...anyway, at some point Lydia said something along the lines of “Bottom punching is not an acceptable dance move.” We watched Juno, which is one of my favourite films (and one I probably should have put down in my last entry as my favourite film instead of Twilight :P). One of my favourite quotes from it is spoken by Juno’s dad, when he says to Juno “Look, in my opinion the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what-have-you. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out of your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.”

Anyway (I'm highly aware that I’ve used that word a lot. Sorry about that.) Other stuff that I was going to talk about included going to town (I tried my first BLT. And I have three words to say about it: Oh. My. Goodness. I cannot believe I have gone through my entire life and not had one.) to do shopping, books I’ve been reading (or haven’t been reading. I’ve had if nobody speaks of remarkable things since my birthday and I still haven’t read it. It’s very unlike me.) and a good general moan about life. However, there is packing to be done and this essay isn't going to write itself...
B xxx

P.S. I have American Dollars. They smell like my childhood.



P.P.S. John Green googles himself. If famous authors are doing it, then I’m allowed to do it. :P